My Battle with Depression

One of the battles I have dealt with most of my life has been with Depression. I can make my self get in to a deep Depression just by snapping my fingers. I hate that it is that easy for me to get there. But I now know that I put my self there. Then once I get there it is not that easy to get out.

In the last 2 1/2 Years I have dealt with it the worst and it is the longest that I have ever dealt with it. They would put me on Anti-depressants they would work a little but not totally. On the out side I would seem fine but on the inside I just hated myself and My life. I am not saying that I didn't like being a mom or a wife I just didn't like how life was going and how I treated my kids and Especially Jon. And because I felt that way I just kept getting myself deeper and deeper into depression.

As I have really devoting my life to God and with God's help I have done a lot of soul searching and I have handed a lot to God that I never gave him control in and I can truly say that I am no longer Depressed and I am more happy today then I have ever been in. Now i know that if I take my eyes off of God then I will most likely fall back in to Depression quickly.

One of the things God has shown me to help me to deal with my emotions is Exercise. Which I know do 5 to 6 days a week. It has really helped me to feel better about my self. Exercise is not just to help you lose weight or to make you look good it also helps you feel good. I can always feel a huge difference from before I do them to after. I would say that exercise it one of the things that has helped me the most get out of my depression. It has truly turned my life up side down. I have more energy to get my stuff done in my home. For the most part I always have a clean house. It helps me to stay more in tuned with my emotions because I am more alert then ever.

I just have to say one more thing. I AM HAPPY AND IT FEELS GREAT!!!!!!!!