The Battle Begins

I will tell you as I was writing yesterday I was having one of my worst days. I could really feel the battle in me. Satan does not want to let me go in the area that he has the foot hold on. I know this is going to be a hard road but for me it seems very scary to go down. A friend gave me a great verse yesterday that really encouraged me. I leave you peace, It is my own peace I give you in a different way then the world does, so don't be troubled , don't be afraid. John 14:27 What a great verse. It brings great comfort to me. How amazing is it that we have the freedom not to worry or be afraid because we have God to take care of us and to look out for us. We just have to trust him.

As i was struggling yesterday God brought to my mind that I have to be in control of everything and if one little thing messes up my plan then i just get mad and start to yell. I need to let him be in control not me and I need to lay all those troubles in his hands and he will take care of it. Now i say that but that is not easy as many of you may know. Psalm 68:19 Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens. This verse is just a reminder for me to lay my burdens down for he will carry then for me. That is just so awesome to know that the cares that much to do that just for me.

You know God brings trials into our life to grow and if we just stayed where we were we could never better the Kingdom and we could not be a light unto the world as we are commanded to do. I hope to get the victory i so strive for to bring more people to Christ and show them that God cares and loves then.

Here are some verse that I look at every time I get angry just to remind me what God thinks about Anger.

Proverbs 29:11 A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control.
Self control is my ultimate goal. I look at this verse and it reminds me to gain control of my self before I do sin.

Ephesians 4:26 "In your anger do not sin" : Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,
With this verse I have to remember that it is not wrong to be angry but the way you handle yourself when you are angry can be the problem. For me when I am angry I yell some times curse, and all of that is wrong.

Psalms 18:32 It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.
When I find my self getting angry I just look to God for he will Bring me strength to get through the situation that is making me angry. It is amazing when I do pray that I just seem to defuse and I can deal with the situation in the right manner. Most of the time those situations just end up being with the kids. I don't find my self getting angry with other people but just my kids and some times with Jon. I wish i would remember to pray for strength every time I got angry then I would be able to deal with it but when i am over the top my mind just doesn't work right I feel like any ways.

For those of you who are following me on this road please pray for strength for me. I have been getting really bad headaches and that just makes it worse to control my self. I have been getting one almost every day this week. Thanks to all of you for all your prayers and for walking beside me on this road.