Prioritys

Yesterday I had an incidents that broke my heart and made me realize that my priority's were a little messed up. I was in the kitchen doing dishes and Cleaning the kitchen. I had the kids playing in there rooms. When ever I am cleaning I hate to get interrupted and have to stop doing what I am doing. Well Samuel had to go to the bathroom and I was fine with that, I took him and I was trying to get him to hurry because he was messing around and he was going poop which takes longer since he is only 2. I kept telling him to hurry and to stop messing around because I had things to get done. Well soon as he was done I was putting his pants back on and he lunged forward and wrapped his little arms around my neck really hard and said "I Love You" And he kept saying it. I started to cry because I realized that My Children need to come before my house work and I was not doing that. God used Samuel to show me that and what a sweet way to show.

As I have been walking down this road I can really feel my legs getting stronger. I fall a lot less. As I have been leaning on Gods strength and depending on him I can get through my days a lot easier and I have more JOY in my days. There are still times when I raise my voice to a level that was not needed but with time I know that will get better. I know that things just will not change over night. But I have really learned how to lean on God all the time and not just when I need him. When I am really having a hard time I have learned to just pray a lot and it calms my spirit.

My biggest prayer that I have been praying a lot is that I will have a Meek and Quiet Spirit.

I just Praise God for his grace. If it was not for that we would not be here or be able to enjoy heaven with him one day.